Friday, January 9, 2009

Transition

World in View is building the kingdom in the USA as well as in Africa. Since it was founded in 2007, I have seen the Lord use WIV to help individuals discover and pursue what the Lord has for them. Without a doubt, Jeff and Rebecca Neal have played this role in my life.


It feels like I have always wanted to work with people with HIV, but I could not articulate exactly why for several years. While studying Luke 4 it became clear to me that Jesus came to set free and to heal the most vulnerable in society. That was it! Finally I understood that the Lord was giving me a small piece of His heart. A heart to ensure that those who are most vulnerable in Africa know by our actions that they are loved and not forgotten.


"God sees you. You are not forgotten. You are not alone." became my montra while in Africa. This core message was conveyed through every task and assignment I was given. I longed for people to know that they were not alone. The Lord has not abandoned them. And we have come to stand with them as they see their dreams realized for their community to LIVE. Being a part of WIV made it possible for me to fulfill the Lord’s calling in this season. WIV held me close while pushing me closer to Jesus, to trust Him more for my every need.

As I see WIV develop, I can see their impact on so many people through their annual short term field service opportunities in Africa and relationships at home.

In 2009 WIV plans to take several more small teams to Mozambique and to South Africa. WIV is a part of an amazing move that the Lord is doing across Africa.


The heart of our Father breaks for those who are suffering. He longs to go to them- using your feet and touch them- using your hands.

He places dreams and longings in your heart so that He can express His love and His grace through you in a most unique way. I challenge you not to allow your dreams to remain dreams. May you be found faithful with the dreams that you have been given, allowing your dreams to become reality! As you do, I can imagine that the reality of the Lord's love will be made clear to many or perhaps to just one.

As we express the reality of God's love on the earth, the kingdom of God is built on earth as it is in heaven! I hope that we all spend our lifetime discovering what it means to build the kingdom of Heaven together.

For me, “building the Kingdom together” means that we work together to help people to LIVE the abundant life that God intended them to live. LIVE a life of freedom, a life that serves and honors God. And as we LIVE a life in love with our God, He fills us with compassion for our neighbor. This is referred to as "righteousness and justice" in the scripture.

World in View has helped me, as they have helped many others, to discover what it looks like for me to live out Amos 5:24

“But let justice roll down like waters, and righteousness like an ever-flowing stream.”


I will forever be grateful for the opportunity to work with WIV.

As my 18 month commitment has come to an end, this season of formally working with World in View has come to and end. This transition will not affect my support of World in View in their efforts to care for orphaned and vulnerable children in Southern Africa.


You can continue to follow my blog at livinghope.squarespace.com for more stories from Africa and updates on my future plans.

My email address will also be changing to jeanaimee@gmail.com

Thank you! Much love to especially Jeff and Rebecca. It has been a joy to build the kingdom with you. I could never express how much I have learned from you and how thankful I am for all that you have done for me.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Just thoughts

I am home! and it is good. Almost 100% of my time has been spent with my family. Oh so important. The time that I have spent with a few friends has been sweet.

Tomorrow (well really today) I will be coming back home to Hillcrest. It will be WONDERFUL to see everyone again and begin to reconnect.

I feel like I will not be talking much. This is not because I do not want to talk, but because i would like to talk TOO MUCH! Better that i have some time alone to process before I start talking a lot so that I say will actually make sense. Know what I mean? If you have ever had a long conversation with me, I am sure that you do. :)

Oh, so good to be home.

Many more thoughts to come. Sorry for being absent for so long.

much love. Hope to see you soon. jag

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

diamonds for a goat

"... then a guy came and told everyone that they should stop selling their bags of diamonds for a goat!"

Andrew is a new friend of mine from Zim. Emily had told me that what is pictured in Blood Diamond is real and it is happening in Zim today. On the way to my HBC training in Bushbuckridge, Andrew echoed Emily's stories.

Andrew spent a year collecting diamonds near Mutare, the city in Zim that I used to visit last year once a month. His nephew found one stone that he sold for 50,000USD!

When it all started, just 2 years ago, he said that is so easy to find the diamonds, people just fill the plastic bags that "jelo" (Popsicles) are sold in and would trade it with ... whatever. They had no idea the value at that time! Now the government has caught on and corruption has set in.

Now, the police heavily control the area and shoot anyone found trying to get diamonds. Some say it is worth the risk. If you get the "right" cop, he will take his cut and let you go. Then there are buyers who come stay around the borders, ready to take full advantage.

My heart sinks. So many resources. So vulnerable.

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Reflecting

“not how much we do, but how much love we put in the doing, not how much we give, but how much love you put in the giving.” Mother Teresa.

A dear friend, Emily, shared this quote with me this morning. It seems to put everything into perspective. As I am thinking of returning home in a few weeks, I look back at the past year. What value have I added? I realize that it is not about what I have done but how much love I have put into what I have done.

At one time I was really struggling with this. The Lord told me to meditate on 2 Corinthians 13 everyday. The Lord wanted to remind me daily. While I may have good intentions and the things that I am doing are good, if I am not showing love in everything it is like a loud gong, rubbish.

Perspective is everything.

To all who have invested in this time, how can I best communicate the fruit of your investment? This rolls over in my mind again and again. Is it in a report with a list of activities? While this is important, I do not think that it will communicate how I have changed. How the Lord has touched others through me. Stories. I can tell stories. Man! Can I tell stories!

My hope is that you will smile when you hear that when I come home I just want to listen. I desperately want to hear your stories. I would like to share with you too. Show you pictures and share the amazing ways that I see the Lord moving in Africa. It is like I am coming home after a long day at work on the phone. Have you ever come home after a long day and you just want to listen to your loved ones talk? Just to hear their voice again. Just to see and experience life with the ones you have missed, the ones you love so much.

This is my heart right now. I just want to come home, sit on your couch and listen. Then we can share together. I am sure that we both have stories of the amazing things that the Lord is doing. So glad to be a part of your life.

See you in the morning.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

How we move

When I was last in Mozambique, I began to think of a phrase that defines what the Lord is talking to me about these days, "this is how we move."

Carlos is a man who does not come out of his "prayer closet" until He gets a word from the Lord. Once that "word" comes, there is nothing that will change his direction, apart from another "word."

Some time ago the Lord spoke to him that there will be 5 community based organizations running home based care in Mozambique.

Carlos is like a steam engine. The Lord has spoken and nothing is going to stop him.

This is how we move.

The situation in Mozambique right now is very bleak. We have now entered "hungry season." Can you imagine? Hungry season. In the West we speak of holiday season, football season... but hunger season? shoh.

Mid-October marked the beginning of rainy season. The communities have prepared their fields. Now we wait. The harvest will be ready late Feb or early March. Typically people begin to run out of food by the beginning of January, making the first two months of the year difficult.

This year there was a fire that wiped out 700 homes, 400 grain reservoirs and leaving 10 people dead, all within one hour. With the dramatic inflation on food and many food reserves burned to the ground, we have entered hungry season even sooner than usual. The prediction is that this hungry season will be the worst that we have seen in a long time.

This does not discourage Carlos. It does not slow him down. The Lord has spoke. We are together. The Lord is with us.

This is how we move.

Currently our biggest need apart from food in Mozambique is a bore hole. A church gave money for a bore hole to be placed in Gondola, but it has not been placed yet. TIA.

We have a donor who would like to work with the Rotary club in Canada to fund a project with us. In order for this to happen, we need to have relationship with the Rotary club with the local Rotary club in Chimoio. We got the number and asked to come to their Thursday night meeting.

That Thursday Carlos was at the Rubatano Center for another meeting. A car full of visitors drove up in a "heavy" truck. About 6 foreign visitors piled out. Their visit was a total of 20 minutes. In that period, they explained that they just came for a quick visit. They had heard of Rubatano as it has been nationally recognized as best practice in Mozambique.

One visitor asked Carlos how many children meet at the center. 450+. "Is there enough water?" No, but we have a church who as promised money for a bore hole. The visitor made a call and they were off, back to Maputo. "who was that masked man??"

That night at the Rotary meeting, after we introduced Rubatano, a member casually asked us "did you have a visitor on your property asking you about a bore hole today?" yes. "I am the one that he called."

shoh. This is how we move.

The Rotary member met us at the Center 2 days later. He was stunned. Even though Rubatano "needs," they are not stopping. He was encouraged. To this point we are not sure what will come of this meeting. One thing is for sure. The Lord is busy with this man. The Lord is busy building His kingdom.

Whether or not the Rotary will place a bore hole- this is how we move. We/ Carlos will not stop.

Dara and Laura came to Africa planning to be nurses in Moz. They prepared to be nurses in SA for 3 months, then when they arived in Moz they continued to prepare to be nurses. It is now 6 months later and still no license. TIA.

When I was there I had a picture of them offering their lives as a living sacrifice to the Lord. They have spent the past 4 months writing proposals and budgets. Oh, their heart and their attitude is amazing. They are willing to do anything to be a part of what the Lord is doing.

This is how we move.

Now I think about my life. big sigh! I am coming home in less than 6 weeks now. Carlos speaks about Love in Action. To this point the word "hope" has carried me through much. Most people know how much this word means to me. "Hope" is no less important. Now I feel that I must grow up! It is not just about hope, but action. Sure, you must have faith and believe, but what are you doing with that faith?

shoh!
This is how we move.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

living truth

So a film crew came to document what Rubatano is doing in Moz last July. The program aired today on direct TV in the states.

We are praying earnestly that the program will stir up much support and interest in what is happening on this side. Please be in prayer with us. This is a very improtant time for our work here.

The program might be available to download from the internet www.livingtruth.ca I hope to have a copy of the program when I return home. It will be good to watch it together. Hear it was very well done.

the team

Four friends from the US came to visit. It was wonderful! Jeff Neal, Audrea Lemons, Josh Hendon and Charlie Wheland. I met them in South Africa then we traveled together to Moz. They were here from Oct 7-16. I will return on the 21st to SA. The next time I am in the Joburg airport will be headed for the US. crazy.

It was wonderful to have the team here. To watch them love Africa as I do. Love the kids. Love the volunteers and Carlos. The Lord is present in this place.

Thank you for your prayers and support that carried their time here. I hope you hear many stories and see even more pictures when they return home to Dallas and New Haven.

Thank you for coming. It ment the world to me and to Carlos. Much love to you.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

The Call

This week I met with George and Lynn to discuss the next steps to work with Pastor Roy Nazumbe in Malawi. We each agreed that he is a man to link arms with in his work in Mngwere.

The next step is a phone call from George to discuss the way forward. Dedza is on the border between Moz and Malwi, just about 5 hours from Carlos and Rubatano. I will be visiting Carlos with my team on Tuesday for about 2 weeks. It would be good if he could hear from Carlos and see Rubatano while I am there. We tried to call at our scheduled time, but unfortunately the connection did not go through. George agreed to try again soon.

Later that day (last Thursday), I thought about Pastor Nazumbe. He has been waiting for this communication for a month. Now we scheduled a call and it did not come. He does not get phone reception at this house, so if he is waiting on this call, I am sure he is trying to stay in a place where the call could come in. Thankfully the call went through later in the afternoon. We had a wonderful conversation.

He IS still interested in working with Hands, though is not able to come to Moz when I am there. No problem. He can come anytime it is convenient for both he and Carlos. As we talked through some preliminary steps, Pastor indicated that he is 100% invested in this. He has counted the cost and is willing to make the necessary sacrifices to make his community's outreach to the orphans, widows and the sick a success.

I am coming home in 11 weeks. Daily we process time spent here and what it will be like at home. (many of us leave in December.) I am here to lock arms with those who have a passion to live out God's call to "love your neighbor" and "let justice roll down like waters, and righteousness like an ever-flowing stream." Amos 5:24

Man, this call. To lock arms with Pastor Nazumbe. This is why I am here. To make the call to let him know that we (someone) wants to lock arms with him and see the life, physical and spiritual, that he longs to see in his community come about. Wow. Kingdom life. This is it.

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Change

Only someone who has dedicated a block of time towards researching materials to write a manual will get so excited about a powerpoint presentation that they will cut and paste a slide onto their blog! Shoo! (tried to upload, but would not. user error, internet connection, bad format. oh well. )

Today I am making some good progress on the HAW HBC manual. There is a ton of pressure to get the first draft out as there are many projects who are waiting to be trained. Our team that does pastor's trainings have done a phenomenal job stirring up the church to the point of action. Now they are ready to take action! They have selected their volunteers and are anxiously awaiting training. My training.

It is good. Much has already been written by George and others that is excellent. All I need to do now is put it together into training programs. Sounds easy enough, right?

When I was going through a training program on clean water that our church partner in Canada gave to me, I found a slide addressing how people respond to change. I realize how much this slide has affected my thinking, so I wanted to share it with you.

The moral of the slide is that it is step 5 of 7 when someone comes to the point where they recognize that there is a problem and is willing to look at possible solutions.

I see this played out in my own life a ton! If I do not need a possible solution to a problem it is hard not to be in denial that there is a problem at all.

On the other side of that, this is the reason for our pastor's trainings. We all know that there is poverty and need, but it is not until we come together that we are able to see that there is something we can do. Until then, nothing is being done.

Reminds me of when Levi was speaking to the pastors in Dedza, Malawi. One of the men said that we opened their eyes to the problem and they now realize that even if it is bringing firewood to a widow, there is something that they could do. Now they have known that there was a problem. What has changed is not they have come together to make a plan on how they can address the problems.

hum. interesting. Hope it is for you too. :)

(sorry, no slide)

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Letter of Thanks

After Levy and I visited Pastor Roy in Malawi, Levy headed home to SA and I went to Zambia. Laura Eliason met me in Zambia so that we could facilitate a nurse training together.

There is a project called the Go Center that does mobile clinics in many areas. They partner with Hands at Work by providing a mobile clinic once a month in several of the areas that we have HBC projects. It works well for the volunteers to refer their patients to the clinic. The mobile clinic also uses the Hands at Work nurses to staff the clinics.

They asked us to provide training for their nurses. This was a wonderful opportunity for us since their nurses are also our nurses.

We provided training on HIV and recognizing and treating childhood illnesses. It has been documented that most children that come to a community clinic are complaining of a respiratory infection, diarrhea, maleria, malnutrition or an ear infection. These illnesses have also been identified by the WHO as the leading causes of death in children under five. We facilitated discussions to help them get used to using the WHO tool called the IMCI (Integrated Management of Childhood Illnesses).

I would like to share with you the speech that the participants gave at the certificate ceremony following the course.

"On behalf of my fellow nurses and on my own behalf I would like to thank Jean Aimee and Laura, and Chreso management for granting us this opportunity of attending this seminar which was very educative indeed.

We learned a lot, revised a lot and shared a lot of experiences.

We really needed this seminar for revision, for learning new things, and for motivation.

You made it easy for us to learn from you because you were really simple, cheerful and very friendly.

There was no time at all when we found lessons boring.

We were always filled with laughter and eagerness to learn more.

We have discovered a lot of issues that we needed in the mobile clinics. - You helped us to discover them.

We have gained a lot of knowledge from you. – We hope you have learned a bit from us too.

We have nothing to thank you with apart from these small tokens to remember us by.

We will always remember this seminar.- We will always remember your goodness.

May the Good Lord go with you, guide you, and see you through all your endeavors.

Thank you.

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

Be still and know.

Two phrases resonate in my spirit, “be still and know,” and “it is well with my soul.”

Laura and I have been in Zambia providing training to nurses that work in primary healthcare mobile clinics. Two months ago I felt intimidated by this charge. What value can I add?

The details for this training were not set until I arrived. I had a vague idea what they wanted to be taught, but it was not fixed. With more questions than answers, I was at complete peace.

The training has gone well. We have had some discussions that the nurses report “have really gotten our minds going.” Wonderful.

Laura is living and working in Moz with Rubatano, where I lived last year. She got an SMS last week. “Fires have burned down patients and orphans houses. Few dead. (two volunteers) independently wished that Jesus would come soon."

Laura and I prayed for the project, the families affected by the fires and our friends working there. I played a song called “Held” by Natalie Grant. “Surely we can wait for just one hour, watching for our Savior.”

This song speaks such truth to me. While we were both deeply grieved with the news of the fires, “what else do these families and children have left to loose, to endure?” Then we step back and watch as the body of Christ move. We have one team coming from the states in one week and another in about 3 weeks.

Exodus 2-4 is loud in my ears. The Lord has seen the suffering. He has heard the cry of His people, and he is responding by sending these 2 teams to be a part of helping these families.

What if these teams were not coming? What if they each thought,” I would like to go to Africa one day. Maybe one day. “ The Lord would find another way to touch the families and children in Africa, but the members of these teams and their support teams who are at home praying would miss it. They would miss the opportunity to be a part of what the Lord is doing… to Love, to Touch and to Hold.

Friday, August 29, 2008

humbled

Humbled. This is the only word I can think of as I process our time in Mngwere.

Levy and I traveled to Mngwere to meet Pastor Roy Nazumbe, a pastor and teacher.

Pastor challenged me. Do I REALLY believe God can change culture. He does. The more I got to know him, the more I saw in myself where I have stopped believing without realizing it.

Mngwere is a village 10km from the town of Dedza. It is not a big town, but it has a district hospital. There is a College of Forestry down the road, a secondary school where the current president of Malawi attended, a saw mill... There are resources around the village, but they have not penetrated into the village.

When we met with the District Commissioner, he laughed when we told him where we were interested in working. No one goes there, he said. People have tried to establish help, but have not been successful... due to culture.

Culture. How is culture keeping so many children from going to school, even though it is free? How is culture preventing help from coming to the many orphans and widows in the area?

The Little by little the truth came out about "the dance." Levy asked on day one if the cultural dance is practice in Mngwere. Pastor said that this dance is why he is there. He would like to be a part of changing how damaging it is to the life of the village.

"Gule Wamkulu" translates into "big traditional dance." When men, even boys as young as 7 put the mask on, you are not to call them by name. He is to be known only as the animal that he is representing. You are not to question him on his whereabouts. I think that it will take more than a few visits to the village for me to really understand the impact of this dance on the culture.

Pastor said that he has already seen change, though it is slow. Levy talked about community schools. If we do not help these children go to school, the cycle of despair will continue. Pastor agreed with his whole heart, adding that he has seen another community be transformed when they opened a community school.

Pastor Roy Nazumbe is an agent of change. He sees what needs to happen and he is committed, regardless low long it takes and how hard it is on him. Even though he has lived in the village for most of his adult life, because he was not born there, he is considered an outsider. He has gathered 10 churches together to reach out to the orphans, widows and elderly in their community. His role on this committee is not chairman, but coordinator. A humble man. I was humbled and highly honored to stay in his home.

Please pray for Pastor Roy Nazumbe and his village Mngwere. The Lord is doing something significant in that place. Levy and I went because the Lord said- go here now. The Lord heard the cry of his children in Mngwere and He responded. How humbled I am to be a part.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Even if...

Even if there is a clinic... many people do not have transport to get there.
Even if a mother finds out she is pregnant and is HIV positive... the hospital may be out of medication
Even if the doctor orders a CD4 count and HGB (to test for anemia)... the hospital is likely out of reagent.

Treating HIV in a resource poor setting has many challenges. As I learn about the complex issues I see over and over the need for Home Based Care. The medical facilities desperately need support to assure that the patients take meds and follow-up as they should. The staff is overwhelmed with the numbers of people, they are not able to council each person, to help each person understand what they can do to take care of themselves.

When I look at the hospital system my ray of hope is HBC and knowing that we are investing knowledge at the community level. HBC... oh so good.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

"Jean Aimee come?"

Laura and Dara are two Hands volunteers who are working in Moz at Rubatano. Recently sent an email to let me know that Dorcas is asking for me to come visit.

"Hi Jean Aimee,
How are you? I was just up with Dorcus and the kids and Dorcus asked “where’s Jean Aimee? Jean Aimee come? Come?” I said “yes, she will come…I don’t know when but she will come.” You are missed here!"

Wow. I love those kids! It has now been a year since we asked their family if we could take them to Maforga. Fun that they are starting to learn English! I cannot wait to Augusto and his sister Dorcas in October!

Thursday, August 7, 2008

What lies ahead

Refreshed! That is how I feel after our last week in the Cape. It is good to have a renewed perspective.

So, to recap. The last 3 weeks of July was spent de-worming. Then, off to the cape! We got back on Wednesday. Now that the computer is squared away, I am ready for the next trip.

Sunday I will leave for Malawi and Zambia for 5 weeks.

First stop- HIV treatment and palliative care training for 2 weeks in Malawi.
This is a very exciting opportunity that came up last year. My prayer for this time is that I will be able to bring back something that will be applicable and helpful in our HBC setting.

Then, the 3rd week, Levi is going to meet me in the capitol city to travel to a potential new project. One of our partners has gone before us and helped the community to identify a champion. We will meet with him, the local pastors and other community leaders to hear their heart. What are their dreams for their community? Our aim? To encourage and build into them. We will speak to them about who Hands is and come back to discuss the way forward with the Hands team in SA.

The project is located on the border between Malawi and Moz, straight north of Rubatano and Carlos. The idea is that he will be able to help this community start a HBC project.

I cannot tell you how exciting this is!

The second objective is to report the steps of how we went into the community, so that it can be duplicated in other communities that we are seeking to enter.

Levi will go home after our week and I will proceed to Zambia. Laura, a Canadian nurse currently working with Carlos, is meeting me to do a training for the nurses of a mobile care clinic. Exactly what we are going to train on is TBA. After all, this is Africa. If everything was planned to a "T", well... I think that I would go nuts when it does not follow the plan. Not really. We are still waiting to hear what topics they would like for us to provide training on.

The mobile clinics are staffed by nurses who also staff our Hands HBC projects in the area, so by providing this training it will in turn help the quality of the care with our HBC projects. Very nice.

Ok, I am getting too exciting and chatty now. Please pray as I prepare for this long journey. AND when you think of it, you might even give me a call on Skype!

Much love.
jag

fatal error

There is nothing like the sinking feeling in your stomach when your computer suddenly goes to a fuzzy DOS screen then powers down. It is times like these when there is much security knowing that everything is backed up!

When I came home from Cape Town, I told Jon, a fellow volunteer and a BRILLIANT computer guy, of my perrals. He spent hours that night only to discover that my Outlook was corrupted. Then he spent most of the next day ensuring that I had a solid back up to the computer and reformatting the hard drive. When friends give gifts like these it is humbling. I am thankful for the community that we have at Hands.

After MANY hours of patience on Jon's part, my computer is humming along, ready for our next trip!

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

every detail

For the last 7 days I have been in the Western Cape, SA on one of the best vacations I could ever imagine! Heather, a volunteer with Hands from Canada, and I left J'burg with a flight ticket and accommodation with a friend. We were both so busy before we left we literally did not have time to plan the details of our trip. Everything could not have been more perfect, from the moment we stepped of the plane and hopped onto my laptop to search the internet for car rentals!

We visited wineries, stayed with lovely friends, walked with penguins and climbed Table Mountain. Last night we stayed at a B&B with a view of the Atlantic. Breathtaking! After spending some time on the beach with the penguins, we drove down to the Cape of Good Hope, the southwestern most tip of Africa. "This is a holy moment" sung in my heart. Moments like these still my heart.

I continue to be Flickr challenged and my computer is sick, but will try to post some pics. Would love for you to see some of these sights! What you will not see is... the opera guy who sung to us on the Riverfront, the penguin who almost got my nose and the baboon who chased me until I through my mint choco ice cream cone down for her. Very fun!

I asked the Father when we were hiking up Table Mt to talk to me about his character. He said "I will take care of every detail."

Today we smile. hakuna matata! My new mantra!

Monday, July 28, 2008

Grace

I have learned much about grace over the past few weeks, mostly because I have required so much of it. Thank you to my dear friends for loving me through my stress. Thank you to the UK team for making what must have felt like millions of PB sandwiches and being willing to be stretched while entertaining the children. You did a great job talking about HIV and worms. Thank you to Carolyn and Vivian for helping the logistics come together.

Last Wednesday in small group I listened as Marc M talked about grace. I realized in that moment I have been very weak in the area of giving grace, while I have been receiving a huge amount of grace. This was a most humbling realization.

I have spent a lot of time meditating on grace. When we are young, we see the world in black and white. As we get older, our world perspective changes. When people let us down, we are able to not react, but address the issue. Wow. Lord, I hope that one day I grow up to the point when this can be said of me.

PB flowing!

Imagine a 20kg bucket of PB... I couldn't either before de-worming started. Now imagine the same bucket tipped over in the backseat of my 323 Mazda. Ugh. Wish I had to use my imagination for this one. I just had to laugh when I found that the bucket had tipped over, causing the PB to flow freely across my backseat. I am afraid the aroma of PB will be with me for a while. :)

Sunday, July 27, 2008

At the end of the day

The day started at 6. I needed to stop by ASM to gather the supplies for the day. Thank goodness the UK team made my PB sandwiches last night. Ok, so I have 100+ sandwiches, de-worming pillies, books to record names, buckets, cups, juice squash and oranges.

On the way, I picked up Ezekiel and Victoria on the tar road and we were off! It was nice to hear Ezekiel’s story of growing up in Bushbuck Ridge and Victoria’s of growing up in Masoyi during our 2 hour trek. Ezekiel called ahead to be sure that Nicolas knew that we will need at least 2 buckets of water when we get there at 9 since it might take them a couple of hours to get it from the community pump.
Bushbuck Ridge was identified by the South African government as one of the most venerable areas in SA so it has become a focus for future Hand’s projects. Fickson, Ezekiel and Marc Damour are dedicated to raise awareness among the pastors and train the community regarding responding to the needs of the orphans and the dying.
Fickson told us that the community prepared a program for us, but we had no idea of the treat that was in store! When we arrived, Nicholas gathered the children to sing songs and play games with us. Soon a wheel barrel rolled up with a sound system. I could not figure out how it was powered until I saw the wires leading to a car battery.

Victoria asked me “Shouldn’t we sing a song and pray to begin our program?” “No, they are not a part of our program, we are a part of theirs.”
Two young girls had on shirts over their pants. Ezekiel explained they are traditional Shongoni skirts. We all gathered around as the girls began to dance. Before it was over, several children had traded the skirts from one person to the next, not excluding boys, ladies, Ezeliel and Victoria. Everyone was rolling when I gave it a whirl. Must have been quite a sight!

Nicosa had a special dance prepared. She began with a sheet wrapped around her and shakers around her ankles. The shakers were made from the plastic from milk cartons sown together in little triangles and filled with little rocks. Before long, she took the sheet off exposing her costume. There could not have been a worse moment for my camera batteries die!

After the dancing was over, Nicolas organized the group for the drama. 7 orphans began to sing a song about HIV. The message was “your mother is still your mother, even if she has HIV. She needs your support.” The song went on to include a similar verse for your father, sister, brother and friend. Then they preformed drama with a powerful message… in English! I usually prefer to hear people sing and speak in their own language. How special in this most remote village the children worked so hard to prepare something for us! Song, dance, drama. Beautiful. The community of Welverdeind was not interested in what we could come there to provide for them. They wanted us to experience their life and culture. We were a part of their program. They were not a part of ours.

What to say after that? I thanked the crowd which was now about 200 for the program. For the last 3 weeks I have been going to different communities to distribute de-worming tablets and saying a 10-15 minute spill on HIV. They have far outdone anything that I could have ever done! No amount of education that I could ever do can have the impact of awareness that they provide to themselves.
Each time I go to a community, we always have a brief talk about the medication. It is important to me that the caregivers and the children understand what the medication is for. The diversity of the crowd provided an excellent opportunity for me to ask them some questions that have recently come up regarding de-worming. I am told that the Department of Health is reluctant to allow us to do campaigns like this one because they believe that the communities do not trust medication brought in from outside. Also, Ezekiel told me that even though it is said that clinics provide meds to children 0-5, they often do not have the medication. What do you think? Is this true?

The leader of the UK team asked me if I ever have “pinch me” moments, moments when I can hardly believe that I am in Africa. This was one of those moments. To hear and begin to understand the issues of the community from the children, mothers, grandmothers, fathers and even old men! I could not believe the conversation that we had! It could have only happened in this setting.

We decided to provide the medication to everyone 3 and up, including adults. In every other community I only provided medication for ages 6-18. Nicolas had told us to prepare for 70 people, by the end of the meeting he said 80, in reality we handed out 210 pillies! This is not something that we can do for every community, but it was needed in this place. No one seemed to mind that we ran out of oranges and had to start tearing the sandwiches in half.

What a day. Pinch me.

We dropped Ezekiel off so he could stay the night in Bushbuck and speak at a church today. I am so glad that I had this time alone with Victoria. Our time was sweet. She said that she has learned a lot from me. She said that I do not push my own way, but am constantly asking for the input of others regardless of how much money they have. She said that she has felt valued. Wow.

In the process of putting together this de-worming program, I looked for the most efficacious medication at the lowest cost. We found that the least expensive medication was not the best for the children.

As I reflect on our whole de-worming project, I think of that word “efficacious.” What is most effective may not be what is least expensive in time, effort or finances.

I can come up with the essential elements of a de-worming program. We have to have pillies, records and food. What makes this program a success is how we do these essential elements. The opinion of the local coordinator and the needs of the particular area must be highly valued and drive how we put in place the essential elements.

This is what Hands is to me. What are few, core essential basics for a program to address the needs of the orphans and the dying and how can we work with a community to see them build an effective structure to address needs? In every one of the communities and countries that we work in, there are those who have a dream to help their community live and not die, spiritually, emotionally and physically. We hear “I want to… but I do not know how.” Our role is to help them to first recognize the tools and resources that they already have. Only then do we provide tools that we have found to be helpful in other communities.

It might be more time effective or more efficient to give them tools and tell them how to use them, for me to walk in to each area and say exactly how we have to do de-worming and do it the same each time. What is most effective for the community is for us to first build relationship with them, help them recognize what they already have then implement tools into their existing structure. This process is not easy and often looks “messy.” In the end, it is relationship that matters.

Victoria and I ended the day by providing a traditional SA braai for the Bible Club Champions that helped me in the first week of de-worming. They researched on their own and prepared a drama on HIV awareness for the kids. We had several long days together. It was nice to share a meal together.

At the end of a long day and a long three weeks of de-worming, I am thankful and I am tired.

Monday, July 21, 2008

Today

Today started with a wonderful discussion. Why did Jesus have to die? Very good.

The guys on the farm went to the 6am mens prayer meeting and I drove the girls down in my car. Since Masoyi moved to K2, we only have one Hands bukkie up here to transport folk. Times like these when it is wonderful to have a car!

I drove the ladies down and we all went to the Monday morning prayer meeting. Worship was wonderful. We have a guy named Ezekiel who loves to sing! He has a great voice and really gets us going. There is nothing like African singing! Our message this morning was about loving one another. Nice. Coming from a newly wed who is reading "the 5 love languages." Good thoughts.

Then 2 guys who did a community stay with orphan headed households shared their experiences. That phrase rolls off the tongue too easy. There is nothing "easy" about orphan headed households. Great to hear about their experience.

Thus started week 3 of de-worming.
1. The manager that I placed my bread order of 25 loaves with forgot to place it. They can deliver the bread, but it will not be sliced. No thank you.
2. Last week I told the project managers that the time for the event needed to be changed. It was scheduled for 12, but the children do not get out of school until 2. the time was not changed and letters went to the schools to dismiss the children early. Sorry, see you at 2.
3. We have 100 tabs left from Saturday. We can get 70 more, but we are expecting 180 kids. this weekend we had 60 more kids than expected.

Shoa! Takin' it all in stride, singing "Father Abraham" all the while. :)

Picked up bread from town. The UK team made the sandwiches and loaded the car. I went to town again to get the meds. They gave me 170 instead of just 70. Great! The manager said that they are crediting back everything that we have paid for and lowering the price. Great!

The project managers came with. That was nice for them to see what we are doing. I told them that this is exactly what it should look like. The UK team played with the kids while I set up and the whole time i was giving meds. Kids only had to stand in line 20 kids at a time. Nice. Thanks guys! 178 got meds and all went very smoothly.

We closed with a chat about the meds that they got. What they are for and to be sure to wash hands to further prevent worms. Then we had a 10-15 min chat about HIV. Everyone was hot and tired, but it went well.

At the end of the event, i got a call saying that the pharmacy has called all over town and there is no more de-worming medication anywhere. We were left with 20 tabs that were being given to kids who could not come. (The 1200 tabs to be picked up on Friday have not come in yet)

Should we cancel? No, not yet. Didn't we have 4 boxes? Where is the other box of meds? :) Somehow it was left in the car with 85 tabs. nice. since we are only expecting 100 kids tomorrow, the show can go on.

But wait... what about Masoyi? They just finished their de-worming program. Wonder if they have any meds? Quick, Unathi, I only have 3 rand of phone time on my phone, do you have any meds left? - Yes, we have 500 tabs. You can pick them up in the morning!

Oh, the Lord is so good.

The UK team came back with reports of having a good time. All went well... in the end.

Tomorrow the bread is being picked up by the project manager and the meds by the UK team while I am at my desk answering the emails that are piling up. delegation/ team work is great!

When I got home we had our Monday night dinner at the farm. We have 12 people living up here now. We had a great time laughing and sharing together. Every bit a family night.

I feel like we are walking down a path that is not complete until our foot actually touches the ground, but we cannot stop moving forward. George says we are building a plane while it is flying. Whatever it is, I am thankful for the Lord for taking care of all the details. AND really thankful that I have a holiday coming up in in Cape Town next week. Whew! I am tired! night.

Dreams

It was a dream that got me here and it was a dream that has kept me here. At the end of the day, it is not a dream that would bring me back. I have believed for a long time that the Lord is doing something in Africa and I want to be a part of it.

All that really matters is, am I honoring the Lord with everything that I am doing?

A dream can drive us, even away from the Lord.

Numbers 6 "May the Lord bless you and keep you." This is important because when the Lord blesses us, often we take possession of that blessing. When we do that it can destroy us. We try to control "it" and "it" becomes the object of our affection, of our thoughts and sometimes our everything.

If there is anything that I am white knuckling, refusing to release even to the Lord, I know that there is a problem. I realized that I knew that what the Lord put in me was from him, so I guarded it with everything. How does this relate to the parable of the talents? hum. Will have to give thought to that.

Right now I have never trusted the Lord more. Have I said that already? I realize that I have not always trusted Him with my dreams to be in Africa. In fear I have made decisions to be sure that "this" would always be possible.

The old saying is true, that you cannot steer a car unless it is moving. The question willing to trust God to steer? Seems silly, I know. Also seems real to me right now.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Zim

Emily is a dear friend from Zim. I have known her since 2005 and work very closely with here at Hands. She trained to be a nurse at ASM and has been working with Hands in Masoyi since 04 or 05 in order to gain the skills and knowledge to start a HBC project in Zim.

She has been ready for "too long." This week George, Lynn, Emily and Carlos will go into Zim to meet with Emily's church to discuss establishing a project there. This has been Emily's dream for as long as I have known her. Her church is already doing HBC to the poorest of the poor in Zim.

PLEASE pray that there would not be any road blocks to formalize our relationship. NOW is the time. Emily was telling me that 5 adult on her family's street in the recent months. Each of them have left children to raise themselves, the oldest being 16 years old.

Malawi

August is going to be a packed month! I will come back with lots of photos to share. After I get back from Cape Town, I will be taking a 2 course on HIV in Malawi. We are interested in starting a new project in Malawi, so while I am there another member of our team, Levi, will be coming to lay a foundation through relationship with me in the new area. I cannot express how exciting this is.

The new area is in a strategic location for our work in Mozambique, so it will be in line with Carlos' long term plans. We have just learned about the community in need. So Levi and I will be meeting with community leaders, pastors and community members to cast vision, define need and dream together about the possibilities.

Amazing.

Please pray for us. In addition to an action plan, we will also documenting each of the steps that we take so that it can be put together with what we are doing in other new areas. We are working very hard this year to document everything from how to start a new project logisticly to how to train new HBC volunteers, run a youth project... This is a very exciting time to be here!

Please pray for us as we go into Malawi. May be not lay down our own plans, but may our anthem be "we make a way for you, oh Lord!"

Desperately seeking... A VACA!

Dear Lord, May I please go to Cape Town in July? This has been my prayer for a few months. Within the past 2-3 weeks, it has all come together for me to go to the Cape with a friend from Canada. Wha Ho! We are both VERY excited. While the de-worming has turned around. It is going well and I am enjoying doing it, I am looking forward to a break!

We will spend 3 days in wine country, then 3 days in Cape town and 1 day traveling around the Cape of Good Hope. This is a very beautiful part of the world. It is amazing that we have this opportunity.

Without a doubt it is an answer to prayer!

Saturday, July 19, 2008

De-worming

Recently, a friend asked me what I do on a daily basis. right now, I can summarize what I am doing daily in one word, de-worming. For three weeks in July, I am doing de-worming almost every day from about 1pm to 4pm.

It has been another one of those activities that I was hugely resistant to, but now that I am doing it I love it! The part that I was resistant to was the actually planning. It is no secrete that I am not a good planner. I was happy to be the nurse and give input, but was not excited about being the project manager for all 17 events to service approximately 2,500 children. We had several meeting leading up to July, where we divided up all the responsibilities. When it came down to the day before we were to begin, there were many factors beyond our control, which brought me to be the project manager.

"In my weakness He was made strong." I was stretched beyond what I thought was possible. The result? I trust God more than ever right now. I have see our Hands team pull together to see 1200 children receive medication so far, with a projected within the next week and a half.

Part of our proposal for the funding for this medication states that we will give HIV education at each event. At the first 2 we had a youth group do a wonderful drama. Again, due to factors beyond our control, they cannot go out with us anymore. So, after we hand out the medication, I gather the children to talk about the medicine, prevention of worms and about 15 minutes on HIV. It has been really great!

Another highlight is to see each of the coordinators in their element. I see them in a monthly meeting on our campus, but this is entirely different. As we give each child the medication, if there is one that I am concerned about health wise, then I indicate to the coordinator, and we discuss after the program is complete.

Through this event, we have not only been able to provide de-worming medication to children who would not otherwise have access, but we are also providing health education regarding worms and HIV AND helping the coordinators recognize children in need and make a plan.

Last week a coordinator introduced me to a child headed household. The oldest in the household is 12. She is caring for 2 other siblings. They do not have any food and are in great need. When I return to their area on Monday, I will be able to take a food parcel to the family. I also met a year and a half orphan living with her grandmother. They do not have any food either. The child is showing beginning signs of malnutrition. I can help them this week with food, but after this week? Please pray and trust with me that we will see God's provision for food for these families.

Just past the chicken dust...

What! Oh, it felt good to laugh so hard!

Vusie gave me directions to the next Home Based Care project where I would be doing de-worming. He said "turn left at the robot (traffic light). Pass the school on the right. You will see chicken dust on your right, and someone should be waiting for you there to guide you to the site." CHICKEN DUST! No where else in the world would give you directions based on chicken dust! :)

I was telling this story to my friends over dinner. We were all rolling... except one. "You mean that you have never had chicken dust?" He told us that this is what they call chicken that is being roasted and sold on the side of the road. We did not see a braii (barbecue), but we did literally see a pile of dust with chickens. Ha! We missed that pic, unfortunately.

Monday, June 30, 2008

Community Stay

Most volunteers who come to work with Hands for longer than a month stay in the Masoyi for 2-3 nights. Even my team that came last October stayed in Masoyi for a night or two. Thought I lived in Moz, I did not live directly in the community.

Tonight is my first night to stay in a community. Very exciting! Victoria is the project director for Mbonoswini. It is about 15 minutes away from where I live. She is taking care of 350 orphans and vulnerable children.

Hands focus right now is to plan how to practically and effectively reach 100 000 OVCs by 2010. We have had many conversations with project leaders like Carlos and Victoria and have come up with 3 service areas that we need to focus on: food security, basic health (which includes home safety), and education.

We are working with Victoria on developing these 3 service areas in her community. We felt like it was important for me to stay with them as I was doing the initial training to ensure that we were not simply training them in our (Hand's) plan, but that we are working with Victoria to come up with a plan together.

Please pray that the Lord would direct this time to ensure that it is all that it needs to be. I am releasing all control.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

So many friends, so little time

I was only in Moz for 10 short days. The primary purpose of this trip was to help our new volunteers get settled. Dara and Laura are nurses from the US and from Canada. They will be there for 9 months working with Rubatano. Can I say that I am a bit jealous! :) They are both wonderful girls. It is exciting to see the work grow. For the nurses, I still feel like we are standing on the shoulders of the first 2 nurses to work with Carlos, Ginna and Sara. After only a month, Dara and Laura have done so much. I cannot wait to continue to live vicariously through them!

I continue to be amazed by the growth in Rubatano itself. The volunteers were trained by the government. This helped to increase their skill and strengthen their relationship with the hospital and clinics. I am honored to be in relationship with them.

My role in SA with Moz is country rep. That means that if Carlos needs anything from SA or SA needs anything from him, I help to communicate. Since I have been home, I have had 2 one hour conversations with Carlos. I told him how sorry I was that he had to explain everything to me. He said that was fine, as English is his 4th language. If I can understand what he is dreaming and doing, then I can translate that to the rest of the world, he is happy. It is such a joy to work with this man!

Of course I spent as much time as possibly possible with Augusto and Dorcas. I have uploaded some pictures from their birthday party. No one knows exactly when their birthday is. Dorcas asked for a birthday party and No was simply not an option. We had a combined birthday party so Augusto would not feel left out. It was GREAT! There about about 7 children, ages 2 to 6 that are in Augusto's little family at Maforga. The plan is to keep them together as they grow up. Dorcas is the big sister in the family. It is SO good to see them SO happy. Augusto's big brown eyes have captured my heart again and again. I cannot wait for you to see photos. Check the out!

Another day I went to visit the village. Oh what a party we had! We danced and sang together and tried to communicate. That part did not go so well. I know only a few words in Shona, but our love for each other always translates without fail!

Pasqua, Carlos' wife, and I made a carrot cake together over the fire. This was quite a memory. She is a wonderful friend. Maybe when I get back to Dallas we can make a fire in the back yard so I can teach you what I have learned about cooking over the fire! :)

After 10 days, 2 with HBC, many with friends and lots of good eatin', I returned to J'burg

Recentered

While in Moz, the Lord recentered me as He always does when I am there. I experience a unique confidence that only comes when I am sure of who I am. When he centers me in his love.

“Beloved, we are god’s children now, and what we will be has not yet appeared; but we know that when he appears we shall be like him, because we shall see him as he is. And everyone who thus hopes in Him purifies himself as He is pure.” 1 John 3:2-3

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Justice

Tuesday morning prayer Lady's meeting. It began without event, with a word and a hand full of heart felt requests. Emily spoke, "my father is better, but please let us still pray for Zimbabwe." Emily's family lives in Zim. She got news one Friday that her father was ill. Sounded serious. Between our phone lines being down and challenges on the Zim side, it took over a week to reach her family. It is good to hear that he is better now.

When prayer started, I got a picture in my mind from the movie "the Kite Runner." A young boy was watching his close friend get beat up by older boys. He watched, ran and never spoke a word to anyone.

Something in me rose up. Are we just watching what is happening in Zim from a distance then running away, doing nothing?

We have authority! We must pray! Right now there is a ship loaded with arms from China that tried to dock in SA, but was turned away. It is now trying to get in through Mozambique. We must use the authority that the Lord has given to us and intercede on their behalf!

My understanding for Justice is just beginning. What I know is that I am deeply touched by the pain that I see around me. The question becomes, am I going to do anything with the fact that I am touched, or am I simply going to turn around and live life as if I had never seen, never been touched.

This is what I believe that it means to desire justice.

I would love your comments on this.

Hands Conference

Zambia was wonderful! It was amazing to be a part of training the new HBC with the team from Westside Church, Canada.

I got home on Friday and had one day to regroup and prepare for our African Conference. We had about 20 people to represent our projects across sub-Saharan Africa. What a treat to meet each of them and learn more about their projects. We each interviewed the project directors. I asked them specific questions about their HBC, what they are doing and how I can help them. Interesting to see the diversity of our projects.

I presented a bit and learned A LOT!

Following the African Conference, our African partners and Hands staff went to a retreat center and game reserve to meet with our international partners (including Jeff Neal and his friend Tyler!!). Coming away from this time, the consensus was that this was a productive, well planned time. I enjoyed meeting the various Churches that have committed to Hands projects.

I always learn more of Hands vision each time we come together. Especially to see our US, UK, Canadian, and Australian offices represented. We all realize that we are a part of something much bigger.

Meetings, planning, presenting, getting a last minute computer cord since mine started sparking after the trip to Zambia... Whew. I always thought that the pace in Africa was slower than Dallas!

My current role in South Africa is the Home Based Care Champion. I am responsible for defining the Hands model for Home Based Care and documenting it. During the conference I assumed a new role as the Mozambique representative. Not sure what this means yet, just know that I am honored to be working closely with my dear friend Carlos Guia in Mozy!!

The best part of this time by far was the fact that my dear friend Jeff Neal was able to come. It was good to get to know his friend Tyler as well.

Thank you for your prayers. The Lord has truly helped me to prioritize relationship in the midst of everything.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

I live for days like this!

I spent the first week that I was in Zambia visiting 3 well established projects. I definitely experienced the Lord going before me in that I already had relationship with each person that I needed to meet with. One project has a clinic associated with it where they are able to offer ARVs to their HBC patients. I got to see the community schools on the property of the next project. It was the most beautiful HBC campus that I have seen. I took TONS of photos. Will try to get them posted ASAP!

The next week I met a team from Canada who came to train a new group of HBC volunteers. This was an amazing experience!

On Monday, I went with the team and a few volunteers to do HBC in Mutende, a well established project. In the afternoon, we went to Mulinga. There we met the new volunteers. The leadership has been feeding OVCs and has a small school. The group has been doing HBC individually, but has only been together as a group for 2 weeks.

We broke up into groups of 3 or 4 and walked through the community with the volunteers. They showed us where they get their water and where the children go to school as they told us about the community. We passed a young woman with her 13 month old baby on her way home from the clinic. Her baby was critically malnourished. The clinic gave her soya and some other medication and sent her home. The volunteer spoke requested permission to visit her in her home to learn more of their situation.

It grieved my heart to see the condition of this small child and the hopelessness on the face of her mother. At the same time, I was elated seeing this volunteer in action. She had never been formally trained, yet she was ready to do anything she could to help. To be a part of the process of putting tools into her hand to help women like this one in her community... I live for days like this!

Friday, March 21, 2008

Zambia!

My heart if filled with stories to tell you about what has been happening "on this side."

I arrived in Zambia last Sunday. The purpose of this trip was to help to receive a team from Zambia who are coming in part to train a new HBC project. They arrived yesterday. Our time will over lap about a week, then I will return to SA for our African and International conference. (Jeff Neal will be at the international conference!!)

Since Sunday, I have been meeting with our existing projects in Zambia and learning about the youth project that one of our Footprint volunteers started, along with another friend with Canada, Jordan and Natalie.

I was anxious and concerned about the details of this trip before I arrived. From the moment that I arrived it has been amazing. It is so good to stay with Jordan and Natalie in their house. It is great to see what they have started from SCRATCH! They youth leaders are excited about learning everything they can to help the vunerable youth in their community. I was able to share my CHE material with them. They are very excited to put it into the leaders' hands!

One week before I came to SA, a group of 4 people came to SA to learn from the project there. We had a wonderful time visiting in SA. when I arrived here, it was a smooth transition to visit their projects to see and learn all about what they do. There is actually a project that distributes ARVs for HIV through a clinic exclusively for their HBC patients. My eyes were wide open!

All of the key relationships that I have here were established before I arrived, even up to one week prior to my arrival. I had even met part of the Canadian team last year in SA. Thank you Lord for going before me and setting up every detail.

Please pray for me next week as we start the training. Please pray that all of us come with an attitude of "learners" and we will all have a wonderful experience, I am confident!

Saturday, March 1, 2008

No longer will the poor be nameless!

For the needy will not always be forgotten, and the hope of the poor shall not parish forever." Ps 9:18 (ESV)

This scripture describes my heart!

The vision/goal for Hands is to reach 100 000 orphans by the year 2010. When we look at how many orphans there are in Africa and how many we are currently reaching, the need to push to reach more becomes clear. I read Psalm 9:18 in the Message this morning. The first part reads "no longer will the poor be nameless..." Wow. This perfectly describes our desire to reach more orphans. May we know each of their names and be able to touch them individually and personally. May you know their names... or even just the name of one child so that you may pray for him/her by name.

The second part of the scripture made me very excited as well. A couple of weeks ago I heard a pastor make the statement "poor people have no hope." Shame. I do not agree with him. Rather, I am here to walk with those who desire to have someone to link arms with them as they pursue the dream that the Lord has placed in their heart.

In March I will be traveling to Zambia to meet James. James is a business man who saw a need in his community. He facilitated the start of community schools for children that did not have a school to go to. He is passionate about reaching the children in his community. After meeting George in January, he saw how doing home visits would help the community be more aware of the children's needs. After hearing George one time, we went to him community, gathered volunteers and started doing home visits/Home Based Care.

A team will be coming from Canada to train his volunteers in the basics of Home Based Care. There are 8 or 9 other similar communities who have contacted us for resources, training and support in various ways. How exciting that the Lord will be using me as one player to resource community leaders who long to effectively help there communities.

The HOPE of the poor will not perish forever! AMEN

Friday, February 22, 2008

Badplass

Yesterday I had a meeting with George and Robin.

About a week ago a missionary couple contacted Robin to ask if Hands could please help the project at Badplass to learn to be more effecient as they reach out to the OVCs in their community. This couple has been working with Badplass for some time and the leaders of the project expressed a need for additional training. They have been working for two years and have government funding.

George asked to meet with me and Robin to discuss what my roll in this process will be now and in the future. He would like for us to use this project to help me to define what we need to know from the community about where they are now. Then create a guide to process if we can help them and pratically how.

George was very clear that my role with Hands is not simply to train "nurses," but to help Hands to know what projects we can help and how.

Of course this role will continue to evolve as time passes, but it nice to keep you informed of the process.

Partnering with Belfast

Yesterday I spent the day with a team from the UK at one of our Home Based Care sites called Belfast. This week was my first week in Belfast.

This team represents a church in the UK that has committed to partner with Belfast long term. The pastor came with someone who specializes in working with Children, a coach, a doctor, a specialist in children with hearing deficits, and a gentleman who has adopted 3 children officially and many more unofficially. It was incredible to watch as this team learned about the community from the community. They offered themselves as learners, telling community leaders that they would like to partner with them.

The pastor has committed to send 2 or more specialized teams each year to help where the community has identified needs.

It was an honor to get to know this team and to walk along side of them in the community.

Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Getting my head around "it"

Hello my friends! I am still here! So glad you are too.

I have now been back at Hands at Work for one month now. Even though I was here last year, it was challenging to adjust back into life when I returned. Thank you for your prayers and emails during this time. I have felt very supported and loved by my friends and family.

I often look for stories in my day to tell you. You know how long my stories can be... so before I write to you, I like to have all of my thoughts together. Since "getting my thoughts together" since I have been back has not been easy for me, I have not been writing very much.

Today a light bulb went off! We have small group on Wednesday mornings. My group meets at the Snyman home. George was there this morning, so we stole about 5 or 10 minutes after the group for a quick chat. I told him that my head is spinning as I am trying to piece together everything that I am looking at doing this year. He narrowed it down and clearly restated what he would like for me to do this year. We are both on the same page exactly. I left our conversation feeling excited and recharged!

At the beginning of next month, we are going to have an African Conference, when all of our project directors will gather together. George would like for me to sit with each of them individually to ask them how their home based care projects are going and how we can support them. Then, I will meet with all of the projects from each country to do the same.

Following the African Conference, we are going to be meeting with our international partners. This will be an excellent opportunity for me to discuss with our partners how we can work together to offer our projects the support that they are asking for.

Wow. As I said, a light bulb went off. I can clearly see my place and it excites me every time I think about it!!

All things are truly coming together. I told many of you about a certification that I was working towards, so that we can offer training through Hands for Home Based Care workers to receive government recognized training. Praise the Lord, I passed! In SA the proper term is that I was found competent. This project was VERY stressful! Oh, I am SO relieved that it all worked out. Thank you for those who were praying for me about this.

As for what the Lord is doing in my life... I am not sure where to begin. The most significant lesson that I am learning is that I am not here TO DO anything. I am here to trust God and receive His love. This is my purpose. Everything else that I do is only secondary to loving Him.

Thank you dear friends for your love and support. Please remember that I am just on the ground. We are all a part of this work. I will try to write regular updates and post pictures on my flicker account and for those on facebook, I have not taken the time to figure out how to post pictures there, but I will give it a try.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Word for the day

"for if the sprinkling of defiled persons with the blood of goats and bulls and with the ashes of a heifer sanctifies for the purification of the flesh, how much more will the blood of Christ, who through the eternal Spirit offered himself without blemish to God, purify our consciences from dead works to serve the Living God." Heb 9:13-14

My little children, let us not love in word or talk but in deed and in truth. By this we shall know that we are of the truth and reassure our heart before him; for whenever our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and he knows everything. Beloved, if our heart does not condemn us, we have confidence God;" 1 John 3:17-21

What peace and security this word offers. "whenever our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and he knows everything." Thank you Lord. I pray that you will remind me of this truth each time I start to beat myself up.

Wednesday, January 30, 2008

The Sting!

I am now the proud and humble owner of a 2002 Mazda 323 Sting. Many have prayed the Lord's will for this with me. He has answered with a very good car. It is a low mileage car with an alarm and an immobilizer, CD player. One priority in looking for a car was one that is not high on the high jack list. This car meets all that I am looking for. Today I got insurance and did the math. I predict that I will spend exactly my budget for the car for the year. The Lord is very good. Thank you for your prayers and financial help with this!

Hello friends

I will start with an apology for not posting for so long. I will try to bring you up to date.

It was wonderful to be home and see friends and my family. I did not realize how much I missed everyone. Thank you for coming out to have coffee with me and hear stories about life here. I hope that you were encouraged and feel like you have a better picture of what God is doing here and what life looks like here. You are definitely a huge part of the work here. Your support means the world to me. These are not just words. I am discovering more and more what it is to completely depend on the Lord for everything.

My friends who advised me that it was going to be hard to come home for one month then return for one year were right. Though it was wonderful to be home, it was also hard.

On my way back to Africa, I stopped in London for a couple of days. One of my favorite sounds on earth is the sound of a boy's choir in St.Paul's Cathedral. Sunday night I traveled into town for a special service. I cannot imagine the sound of angels in heaven being any more beautiful. At the end of the service the hand full of attendees had the opportunity to get quite close to the choir as they sang. I think that this experience was the Father's special gift to me.

Coming back to SA felt very natural. There is not a grand sense of adventure or the unknown, simply the assurance that this is where I am to be at this time.

The first week the Lord took care of every detail. Friends from Mozy came to pick me up from the airport and drove me to their house 2 hours away. I stayed at their house (their haven) for 3 nights. On Friday they drove me back to Johannesburg to meet friends who would be taking me to see The Lion King. WOW!! To see this production in SA was definitely and experience of a lifetime! The Lord then arranged for a ride to ASM, where I live. I am so thankful to see the Lord's hand taking care of every detail as I return. I am safe in His hand.

This gradual process of reentering into SA was essential for me this year. As I said, I have a definite sense that I am in His will in SA, but it is very hard to be here. I feel that I have given the Lord all of who I am. In this transition back to SA, I felt the pain of this cost. In fact I have never experienced such pain. Many of you have supported me through this, and I thank you. I am seeking the Lord daily, sometimes hourly or more. He is faithful to give me His perspective and hope.

Because the cost of being here is so high, it is making my commitment to this year higher than ever. I am very excited to see what the Lord is going to do this year!! Thank you for believing with me and for praying with and for me. I will do my best to keep in touch with you with a play by play of stories!

Friday, January 4, 2008

coffee?

I will be leaving next week! It is hard to believe that the time has already come to return to Africa.

Before I leave, I will be having several coffees to show pictures and tell stories about Africa.

Friday night I will be having a coffee in Murphy at 7:00
Saturday afternoon in Richardson at 1:00
Saturday night in Richardson at 7:00

If you are able to come, please email me for more information. You may also call me at 469-487-6735.

I hope to see you!

Thursday, January 3, 2008

"Why are you here?..."

Regardless how hot it was anywhere else, it always seemed to be hotter around Nyero Nyero, a small mountain in Mozambique. In other communities we were able to drive to some patients’ homes as well as walk, not here. To get there, we drive down a dirt road for an hour, then parked our car for the day. The rest of our time is spent walking from “house” to “house,” often 15-20 minutes between houses.

One day, after seeing patients for about 3 hours, we came to a home at the base of the mountain. Brooke and I noticed that there was something written in Shona on the side of a mud hut. Adao translated the writing: “why are you here? The poor man wants to know.”

May I never forget this question. May I never forget to stop what I am doing and answer.

Perhaps my answer would change according to my audience. If my family asked, perhaps I would give a different answer than if my pastor asked why I am here, at this patient’s house, at this time. Perhaps. Regardless, the most important answer to this question is the answer directed to this poor man. How would I respond while looking clearly into “the poor man’s” eyes?

Because I care.


Last week I visited many friends and co-workers from Baylor. A friend asked me “What drives you to do what you do?” “How do you know what to do?”

In the craziness of being home, I have spent much time thinking of these questions.

My mind is brought back to the moment that I experienced God’s love stronger than at any other time in my life. I FELT Him next to me. I HEARD Him singing His song of love over me. I was not shaken in that moment, because the Lord was at my right hand. Psalms 16:8

This love compels me to love others. This love gives me the desire for others to experience His love.
“For the love of Christ compels us, because we judge thus: that if One died for all, then all died; and He died for all, that those who live should live no longer for themselves, but for Him who died for them and rose again.” 2 Corinthians 5:14-15 NKJV

Finally (until the Lord adds a new level), the Lord takes away all of my fears. “I sought the LORD, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears.” Psalm 34:4

He will take my fears, if I give them to Him. “There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out all fear…” 1 John 4:18

As I surrender fears to the Lord, He fills me with His love for His children. He gives me His perspective. This is where Henri Nouwen’s books speak loudly to me about the unconditional, forgiving love of the Father.

Anyone who knows me well knows that I love asking questions that promote thought. I look for these questions in the Word as well. The Lord often asks questions to cause people to reflect on where they are and what they are doing.

Why am I here (in Africa)? Because I have been so deeply touched by the Lord’s love for me, I long for others to know his touch in their lives. While I realize that I can only express His love to the measure that I surrender my fears to Him.